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Saturday, 14 April 2012

Spring into spring

Spring is here, and we have had glorious sunshine, warm sunshine too, enough to warrant summer dresses and sandals, but we’ve had snow as well; we have had it all this April. But snow apart, it has been pretty good weather, there is a drought so the snow and rain has actually been welcome; spring always heralds an invigorating urge to tidy up and organise your home and your life. For one thing, the days are longer and warmer, the curtains and windows stay open longer so all the mess that has accumulated over the long dark winter is now more visible, and dustier. It is time to pack away those bulky winter garments and I suppose the process of dragging things in and out of storage acts as a catalyst to general spring cleaning. Things are moved about, dust is exposed, walls look drearier, in need of a lick of paint and so forth.

It is so easy to get carried away with housekeeping and homemaking. It is all for a good cause though, spring is a magical time; the sky is bluer, flowers explode everywhere, cherry blossoms even start to trend on social media, everyone seems totally enamoured by them, myself included. My favourite aspect of spring is the start of the longer days, leading to long summer evenings, absolutely magical. This combination once led me to feel with my entire being one lunchtime at work that it is a great time to be alive. It was a powerful feeling of genuine contentment and gratitude to nature for the gift of the sun. I haven’t felt that satisfaction in a long time sadly, not just with the weather but with life generally.

I do suppose it is possible to feel at one with the universe on cold, grey, hazy autumn days if everything else is as it should be. Likewise, I know it is possible to feel glum in the sun if the warm weather is the only thing that seems to be going right. In fact, there is every danger of feeling totally dejected having to observe everyone else seemingly grabbing life with both hands while you seem stuck in a rot. But the difference between licking wounds in spring is optimistically the hope of new beginnings and looking forward to a long eventful summer of new promise.

Saturday, 7 April 2012

Limbo like me...

Keeping true to its name, it has been swings and roundabouts. It’s been the pits for a long while and as every cloud has a silver lining, things should be brightening up a bit now. Admittedly, things are looking a lot rosier but I think I am at limbo stage again, waiting, not so much with baited breadth this time but for time to pass and events to unfold.  It’s almost like waiting for the holidays to start so the festivities can commence, guaranteed festivities no less. Yes, the future looks bright, so why is my heart not doing quiet summersaults when I think about it?

Perhaps the means haven’t justified the end; not that the means have been that bad to be honest. And if the end turns out to be what I hope it to be, the most difficulty parts of the journey would soon evaporate and be just all be a hazy memory. It has definitely been a character building rite of passage, lessons to keep one grounded; so that you don’t easily forget.