Happy New 2012

Compared to last year, this year has kicked off to a great start, I think. It at least ended well. This time last year was a dark and confusing time, everything seemed to unravel and not just for me, everyone around me was unravelling as well; friends, family, the economy. And the year continued in that vein with more bad news and confusion. But so far, this year, everything seems to have been sorted out. Some of the losses have been replaced; the confusion and the darkness have been replaced with surety and laughter. Things seem to be clicking for everyone and that makes it even more pleasing.

Even in the depths of it all last year, I had a quiet confidence which has grown and grown, sometimes scarily so. My mother called on New Year’s Day with her usual prayer and blessing for all her kids and grandkids which just reinforced what I have been feeling all along. She said everything I felt in the usual mumsy way, “it will all be well this year, all the blessings we missed out on last year will be manifested this year...” and so on and so forth. Where normally there would have been a lot of eye rolling, I was deeply moved by it all.

Perhaps it is a sign that I am getting closer in age to her (and I am actually) that I am beginning to appreciate all things “older and wiser”. I too blessed my children at the turn of midnight. We were up counting down as there was nothing else to do, the kids were beside themselves with excitement and I am not quite sure why. (I tend to get very euphoric myself on New Year’s Eve; I clean the house to get rid of any dirt before the dawn of a whole new year, especially the kitchen. In my mind, a clean house at the start of the year means a clean house ALL year. And if not, at least I can take it easy on New Year’s Day, with all the chores already taken care of, which is exactly what I did.) Anyway, as we cheered and hugged and watched fireworks (on TV no less), I whispered blessings for prosperity for the year ahead for the pair of them, what greater gift can a parent bestow upon their child after all. And most of all, I believed it with all my heart.

I do believe that if you want something, with all of your heart, it will come to you. So it will be well in 2012, I am certain of it.